Job Hunting Blues, Hues?
Well, Thursday midi.. can't say I'm particularly enthusiastic about anything nor am I particularly depressed. Somewhere in the middle.
My dedication to staying positive throughout my job hunt for September is starting to waiver. It's depressing not to get any calls for interviews, and now that I've experienced that miserable Sudbury job interview, I'm so intimidated about receiving an interview request! Will I ever find myself in a teaching position? It's scary to lose faith.. The idea of "the day" (the day I get told I have a job) is slowly slipping out of my imagination....
That in itself, brings me to an entirely other scary scenario. If not teaching, then what? I'm not exactly cut out to be some sort of programmer, finance person or whatever. My strength is in organization, working with children. It's not exactly easy finding a job that can fit my skill set.. I don't even know what KIND of occupation my skill set fits!?!?!? =(
Anyways, Canada Day is quickly approaching. Last year I was wondering what I'd be doing this year.. who would have thought I'd be sitting back in my old office doing what I'd been doing pre-BEd? Gah.. let us hope it's better next year.
As you can tell, I don't really have much to say that is very positive, so, I shall stop here.
Grumbles
It's been a while since I've last posted (seems like the trend these days). This is due to the insane schedule I have at the office. I've worked OT for the last 2 weeks and I'm sure there is more to come.
This past weekend (or should I say, non-weekend), we hosted an Early Childhood Curriculum Pilot Training Workshop. We had about 9 daycares from across New Brunswick come. It was INSANE. Everyone on the project team was pulling crazy hours and it's not over yet. They have another conference this weekend in Halifax, a proposal meeting on Monday and a proposal submission deadline at the end of the month - this is all on top of the regular day-to-day business.
Lots of work is one thing, but when there is a team member conflict, it becomes draining. I was all fine and dandy on Saturday morning until someone came in with a bunch (6 cups) of Starbucks coffee. I was SO ANNOYED that they only purchased enough to leave out 4 people.. how rude is that!? The excuse was "It was just too much to get one for everyone". Anyways, I'm not saying this person is usually rude or inconsiderate, it was just a bit.. insulting.. as if we were not important or valued. Anyhow, I try not to dwell on such things, but they do grate on my nerves from time to time.
The other tiny ordeal I had was my interview at the Rainbow Valley District School Board in Sudbury Ontario. It was a telephone interview. They called me 20 minutes ahead of schedule - I had actually JUST arrived home (from a very intense work day) and really, really wanted to go to the washroom and collect my thoughts before beginning. Anyhow, no choice.. had to go ahead with the questions. Some questions really threw me off.. they were .. specific yet very general.. I think combining multiple questions into one. I admit that I answered some questions very poorly.. I think I was just too flustered to make myself stop and think.. to take my time. Anyhow, getting a job there is not a possibility this year.. so I might as well learn from my experience (sigh... I guess it just wasn't in the cards). I am trying very hard not to make excuses for myself, but at the same time, I don't want to keep going over it in my mind as I'm afraid I'll get depressed again (like last summer).
I'm heading down to Saint John tonight for this black tie event in celebration of the opening of the Saint John Chinese Commerce Centre. Pretty cool eh? Lots of big shots going to be there apparently.. some delegates from China and community members. I'm actually sort of regretting my decision to say I'd go because I've still got a ton of work to do before the research group leaves for Halifax tomorrow...(and I'm just plain tired).
Anyhow. I'd better stop now.. it's really not the time to be posting. Ciao.
